It's Father Day!

Happy Father Day...

I bought you a card but wonder whether I should mail it..but then again where should I mail it?  Can you give me an address so I can send it to you?

I've been busy in the last several weeks.  Having two jobs is no easy task.  I'm constantly on the run if not..constantly reading, typing, and discussing.  I love both of them.  Each gives me a perspective on things I want and don't want to do.  Daddy, I think I choose the right field to study.  As for future profession, I don't know.  This degree gives me a good background, opens many doors, and helps me make some good friends.  So I'm happy that I am where I am.  Through mistakes and trials, I finally think I'm heading to the right directions.  All the past unsuccessful events give me strength to move forward and to try new things.  I'm becoming more comfortable with myself but not a hundred percent.  You do know about my problems with fat...and yes I eat constantly.  So I wonder why I'm gaining weight! @_@.  You will probably scold me for being worried about it too much.  But you know how much clothes I have...changing the entire closet is not what I have in mind at this point unless you support the change of course! ^_^

How are you now?  Sister is almost ready...you know you're going to have a little grandson, aren't you?  He's very cute.  She shows me his pictures and he's so adorable.  I'm very happy for him because he's so loved by everyone.  It almost reminds me of you because you're loved by everyone.  The little boy and yeah he's so precious.  I wonder if you have a chance, what you would name him?  They have already chosen a name for him and it's so beautiful...just like the parents.  I know for many times you would trade anything to hold him tight, to put him to sleep, to take him to games, and to attend his every event...I know you would. But you aren't here ... and it's okie.  Rest well and I hope your journey is going well wherever you head to.

Happy Father Day Daddy ^_^

Your spoiled and lovely child ^_^

summer 2010...starting? ending? in progress?

it's Sunday morning...the weather is beautiful outside...looking from the inside..I'm sure it's really hot out there...but it's okie... I'm inside..
So summer vacation is supposed to start soon but my schedule has filled with work from day 1 to the last day of summer school.
The more I think about it, the more I realize..I'm so lucky.  I get to do what I really enjoy.
My job in the industry really fits me well.  The working environment is great. It's also great seeing how people interact with each other.  It's great to learn about others.  How you say certain...you reflect upon it...
The dynamic relationship in the office is also pretty awesome as well. ^_^
it's going to be a busy summer but I think I'm starting to fall in love with it even more...

...

been slacking off... I need to get my act together soon....

this week can't come and go any faster...

swimming has been great...love the therapeutic swimming session in the past few days ^_^ 

only if my mood has been better..

all shall pass...like a saying...nothing stays forever, even happiness, even sadness..all shall pass...

writing...

after many years, we've arrived at the same crossroads.
In the past or so I've been following this Korean Drama called "Cinderella's Sister."
The series contain all the emotions that most of us going through at least once in a while.  While watching it, I can't help but thinking to myself... yeah I can relate to that.
Is there a prince charming? Is there a god mother?  Is there a chance to change everything to make things better? 
I would say there are many unexpected twisted and turns and that make the story so much better than the predictable normal romantic comedy that have been becoming more mainstream.  Add a little bit laughter, a bit of romantic, a bit of misery, and a bit of good attracting actors and actresses then come a drama.
But this one is so different.  All the actors and actresses possess their roles as though they are their own life.
Each and every scene has significant story to tell. 
Their are several main characters in the story
Eun-jo: a little girl who followed her Mom wherever she went because she was the only one family member that she got to know. 
Ki-hoon:  a neglected ill. child from a rich family whose family often wanted him dead than alive.
The two lost found each other but never confessed that they loved each other until one day one went missing... until one day.. all the secrets were revealed...
the tear drops from each of them spoke more than words.
Many times we look back and see ourselves standing at the same crossroads. 
The directors purposely reenacted many scenes from the past with the current conditions... seeing how each characters growed from their pain, their love, trying to reach for their happiness I wonder about it myself.
How many times I'm going through the same emotions and yes each time it's so different because I'm a different person at each time.  Compared to 10 years ago, 8 years ago, 6 years ago, 4 years, or 2 years ago, the decisions are made differently each time because you are no longer the same person why would you be the same when you are growing each day from learning, from experience, from others.
It's almost 2 years... and yesterday I bought a father day card...

sick sick

So I'm staying at home today after reporting to work.  Was orderd to go home and rest.
Stomach doesn't feel good.  Everything doesn't feel good.  can't eat anything to make me feel good.  This is a horrible feeling when your tummy keeps on making uneasy noises.
They said there is a stomach flu going around.  I guess I just happen to catch it somehow.  They said the eggs I ate yesterday were not good.
and yeah i always eat the wrong thing when i'm sick!

it's midnight, isn't it?

...should I just ask to go home early?


As you know I'm sitting here writing in thee middle of the night because I .. inadvertently could not sleep the entire night.  Wonder why?  I have digestion problems so all the foods I ate left undigested for the entire evening.  Wonder what happens?  oh throw up episode of course.
I don't think I've thrown up this hard in my life as far as I could remember (if these words make any senses)...
It's crazy and it hurts.  My throat hurts.  The acid taste is too strong for me to go back to sleep so I sit here sleepless and writing.
Without knowing what to write....
Note to self: today only fluid diets, no gym today... that means I might not go for dinner w/ housemates since this will be their last nights here.
Note to self: throwing up is not fun. 
Note to self: needs to eat less (as though I eat a lot).  I blame it on my weak digestive system. I guess now I have an excuse to not eat a whole lot because... the next thing I know I will head to the toilet bowl in no time!

third week update

so this is my third week into rotation.  I have to say I wouldn't have asked for a better rotation site, preceptor.  this place is totally perfect for me.  The preceptor is understanding and nice.  All the people here are just as wonderful.
My MTM session is tomorrow.  Meaning: I will prepare the material about what to tell the patient and what not to tell the patient.
My patient has some compliance issues but I will try my best to see if I can help with anything.  It's exciting but at the same time I feel as though my passion is not here.  I am glad that I am able to do it though.  There is something else that is capturing my mind more than medication therapy management and I think I am leaning toward it more now.  It's still a long shot but we will see what will happen in the future.
I've recently contacted the director at the wellness center near home... yes that is how things get done sometimes unfortunately. well, the employees who work there don't know what kind of pool they have and give me the wrong answer which led to the email that I sent to the director about changing their current pool condition.  In any case, he replied and said they no longer use chlorine! YES!!! So I think I will probably join the gym for sure! I love swimming and nothing gives me better workout beside yoga and stretching.
They have classes that I can attend as well so it's pretty neat.  We will see!
Work is going just fine.  I've been working while on rotation.  Wish the internet was better because I will have gotten more things done but it's okie.  Everything is caught up now.  It's not too bad! 
I admit that I'm quite a workaholic nowadays but it makes me happy.  ^_^


The prospect of finishing up this rotation makes me happy.  I was worried but I didn't have to.  My preceptor made it better.  The site is awesome.  Free food throughout the day.  Free gym for the entire stay.  I couldn't have asked for a better rotation site! ^_^

Need to go to sleep now.  It's been a tiring 2 weeks.