will tomorrow come?

tomorrow..is coming and I'm not prepared for it..
this semester has been up and down..hopefully I'll pass all my classes and move on to the final year in class...
so fast... 2 years have gone by just like a snap...

break break

tomorrow is our first final...and i'm yet to study for the subject...
have been wondering...what it means to finally let go of something that you treasure...
who would have thought...watching a K-drama would trigger such thoughts...after all, I've been through a few of these instances...my life is not extremely rosy but neither is it bleak.
really would love to write an entry about it...but the time is not adequate..maybe after final I'll put something down.
back to studying

electronic?

lesson learn from electronic devices

• save , save, and save your files...automatic saving sometimes won't be able to rescue your file completely...
• if your computer is prone to crash, save religiously!
• once you are done working on the files, save and close it... do not leave them open.  Chances are...they will pop up when you restart the problem after the crash and make you confused about its origin...
• computers don't act according to what you want it to do..
• back up your file....computer can die without anything warning unlike human diseases...
• know a friend who is a computer geek...all your answers will be answered in timely manner 

focus?

beauty is in the eye of the beholder...or they said...
just realized that...the best lenses that are our their are your own eyes...
...why...?
you can only see what you want to see.  There will be things in the way...but you still control your focus...
such is the same with other things in life...
there are many doors...but you only focus on the one that you want...and forget about the rests or at least just don't pay as much attention...
I considered myself lucky...many times over....
Times and times again I wonder what I should do once I graduate...
will working in the community make me happy?  will working in the hospital make me happy?  should I work in the clinic?  should I do a residency?   I know I probably won't do a fellowship...I don't see the advantage...at least at this point...
therapy classes have been anything but a blur...
I ask and ask again...can I do something ...that I could utilize my strengths...
maybe they have given me the answer...
I've looked around a lot...I've tried different things...things that I decided that I don't want to do unless necessary...
I'm trying new things with the current project at school...
I feel most happen when I spend time working on the project at my internship...not that it is a structured internship...it's more like a contract job...but I've learned so much...most of all I've learned what interests me...not that I will follow this path...at least it exposed me to something that I never knew before...
knowledge is one thing...confidence is another thing...
we often have knowledge, have the ability to do things...but our confidence let us down.
I guess...just be strong..and believe in our ability to work harder, smarter, and better...after all...life is full of opportunities...try and try again...eventually...confidence is no longer a matter of fear...it will become part of the success that you are building...a person...who is capable of handling both failure and success...

life oh life..

there are many lessons to learn in life...
even if you pour your heart out...don't expect anything in return...because after all...most of the time people don't care if you have treated them in earnest...
a good lesson to learn...
oh don't worry..I didn't get hurt...
history just repeats itself....it didn't hurt because...I didn't expect anything... i didn't hurt because it didn't want anything in return...
it's an interesting observation of life...
life goes on... ^_^

it's in the blue sky...

time is a magnificent healer...
I'm almost done with second year now.  I still miss you from time to time.  I wish I could tell you what I am going through.  All the exciting things that I get to do and all the failures that I have to endure.
Life is like a rose in the garden. It's not only nice to look at...it also possesses great scent.  And yes...it's too painful to be close without getting hurt...without getting the bruised...sometimes blood.
I have been going through a lot of thinking...most of the time I don't get any of the answers.  I try to let the day unfold itself.
I got an internship..which will probably be set for the summer.  Whether it was luck I don't know.  Part of it just keeps on thinking, you always help me when I need you the most.  Silly thought isn't it?  I know you have long gone to a different world to a different life...but somehow your karma...my karma...still intertwined in this life time.
I talked to M not too long ago about how your simple act carried me through until today...without you, I wouldn't be where I am today.  Without Mom, I wouldn't be where I am today either.  This debt that I owe to both of you are immeasurable.
You raised me up... you helped me grow...unexpectedly through different phases...in life.
You never taught me a lesson formally.  It's through your mistakes and my mistakes that I learned not to repeat them.
You taught me to never let go of what I really want to do..this lesson... I still try to learn.
I miss how you often just sat, looked, and smiled...instead of answering my question.  It showed you will support me no matter what.
the sky is blue...the leaf is green...and forever you will be in heart...you will forever be there...