It's a long day... but it's going to be a short week
can't wait until Wednesday! ^_^
Even though next month is going to be a month off, things aren't slowing down because I have to complete one presentation and the data analysis of the post. Knowing that I won't have any time to do either of them in the month of October and probably November, I should be working on it now.
I have to say this rotation has prepared me well for what I have to do in October. Emerging myself in Pubmed daily, I realize I can actually stand doing Pubmed like this for the last 3-4 weeks. I think I've learned more about breast cancer than I would have known (but there are still so much more to learn). STarting to learn about Hodgkin's lymphoma. It sounds easy but not as easy as it sounds.
I've grown quite fond of taking of kombucha. Trying different methods to protect them from the ant invasion. They grow so beautifully that I get to drink kombucha daily without breaking a big bank for it.
I think I will start putting some recipe up when I have time because I've been writing down different recipes (using various types of teas in variety of combinations!).
I will be able to do this ^_^
Monday, August 29, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
the end of summer
Home Far Away by Solitudes
Is it almost the end of August? The month has just gone by so quickly. I barely noticed that next week marks the beginning of September.
In a mean time, I'm keeping myself busy with different things.
I've decided to go on another retreat (it has been a couple years since I went to a formal one).
Today, I talked to one of my friend's friends and she asked me if I am Buddhist. I said yes. She asked if I know any temple around the areas. I said there was one but not quite close. But then again, if people know me, I don't usually go to temple unless it is in my vicinity. Even when I traveled to other countries, most of the temples that I visited were mostly accidentally. I initially wanted to visit one temple but ended up getting lost and went to a different temple instead. Of all the one I wanted to visit, I actually only got to one or two. The rest was all by chance.
Sometimes it just happened that way. If you're meant to do something, eventually life will take you there. Then you can look back and realize, nothing has been wasted.
If you look at life this way, wouldn't it be better?
Is it almost the end of August? The month has just gone by so quickly. I barely noticed that next week marks the beginning of September.
In a mean time, I'm keeping myself busy with different things.
I've decided to go on another retreat (it has been a couple years since I went to a formal one).
Today, I talked to one of my friend's friends and she asked me if I am Buddhist. I said yes. She asked if I know any temple around the areas. I said there was one but not quite close. But then again, if people know me, I don't usually go to temple unless it is in my vicinity. Even when I traveled to other countries, most of the temples that I visited were mostly accidentally. I initially wanted to visit one temple but ended up getting lost and went to a different temple instead. Of all the one I wanted to visit, I actually only got to one or two. The rest was all by chance.
Sometimes it just happened that way. If you're meant to do something, eventually life will take you there. Then you can look back and realize, nothing has been wasted.
If you look at life this way, wouldn't it be better?
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Gentle Rain
Gentle Rain by Brian Crain
It's probably raining a lot in the North East at this point. Wish them all safe and well!
It was so windy today. Luckily, no fallen trees on the sidewalk. No power outage. Although I've heard they happened at other places.
Mother nature has been in full force lately. From tornadoes, to earthquake, and now hurricane. We are living in uncertainty but what we are certain is the moment that we are still alive and breathing.
I'll pray for you
It's probably raining a lot in the North East at this point. Wish them all safe and well!
It was so windy today. Luckily, no fallen trees on the sidewalk. No power outage. Although I've heard they happened at other places.
Mother nature has been in full force lately. From tornadoes, to earthquake, and now hurricane. We are living in uncertainty but what we are certain is the moment that we are still alive and breathing.
I'll pray for you
Monday, August 22, 2011
A friendship song
What a cute clip! I just have to share !
^_^ treasure a good friend, a friend whom you can share your sadness and happiness, a friend who harbors no jealousy over your accomplishment and is willing to go an extra mile with you ^_^
I'm blessed to have found good friends :)
Enjoy! :)
^_^ treasure a good friend, a friend whom you can share your sadness and happiness, a friend who harbors no jealousy over your accomplishment and is willing to go an extra mile with you ^_^
I'm blessed to have found good friends :)
Enjoy! :)
Sunday, August 21, 2011
almost the end of august already!
Welcome to the Show by Lenka! :)
So it's been a few days since I last post but things have been quite crazy as of late. Trying to finish up the current project (finishing up the first part it is, the second part is still to come!!!)
Rotation has been going well. I learned a lot last week in benign hematology and also met a very nice mentor as well. So it's a win-win situation.
I'm about 10 days from finishing up this rotation and then time for the second part of the race!
I've been experimenting with my cooking a lot at home lately actually.
I finally learned (well experiment is a better word) how to pickle carrot/daikon/cucumber like the way they did at the restaurant (slightly sour/slightly sweet). Even though it's not a great accomplishment, but I've always loved these pickle sidedishes but never made them (because I thought they are hard to make). Then I realized it's not quite that hard. So now I can enjoy them fresh daily! It's supposed to be good for your digestion/diet? I don't know about the second part but I love these! Maybe I should write down the ingredients/measurement and post them here.
I also switch to a new source of protein recently (well technically two days ago) just for a change (but also because it just happens to be on sale and I want to change things up a little bit). I bought half a pound of cod fish fillets. I'm unfamiliar with how to cook fish because my past experience has not been pleasant. They always have the aftertaste that made me don't want to eat them (but fresh sashimi is my love!). The first try, I put them in kimchi soup, it was good but the soup overpowered the fish flavor a bit. So the second time, I marinated the fish with ume sauce, soysauce, green onion, and pepper. I think next time I would marinate it a bit longer (this time it was about 10 minutes). Using soy sauce as a base for my soup, the dish turn out actually better than I thought. I also added spinach for vegetables and a bit of pickle carrots and daikon. The result was great! If I have time, I will post the picture up! In a mean time, I will continue to modify the recipe to make it better!
That is it for now but I think my next post will be about keratosis pilaris :)
So it's been a few days since I last post but things have been quite crazy as of late. Trying to finish up the current project (finishing up the first part it is, the second part is still to come!!!)
Rotation has been going well. I learned a lot last week in benign hematology and also met a very nice mentor as well. So it's a win-win situation.
I'm about 10 days from finishing up this rotation and then time for the second part of the race!
I've been experimenting with my cooking a lot at home lately actually.
I finally learned (well experiment is a better word) how to pickle carrot/daikon/cucumber like the way they did at the restaurant (slightly sour/slightly sweet). Even though it's not a great accomplishment, but I've always loved these pickle sidedishes but never made them (because I thought they are hard to make). Then I realized it's not quite that hard. So now I can enjoy them fresh daily! It's supposed to be good for your digestion/diet? I don't know about the second part but I love these! Maybe I should write down the ingredients/measurement and post them here.
I also switch to a new source of protein recently (well technically two days ago) just for a change (but also because it just happens to be on sale and I want to change things up a little bit). I bought half a pound of cod fish fillets. I'm unfamiliar with how to cook fish because my past experience has not been pleasant. They always have the aftertaste that made me don't want to eat them (but fresh sashimi is my love!). The first try, I put them in kimchi soup, it was good but the soup overpowered the fish flavor a bit. So the second time, I marinated the fish with ume sauce, soysauce, green onion, and pepper. I think next time I would marinate it a bit longer (this time it was about 10 minutes). Using soy sauce as a base for my soup, the dish turn out actually better than I thought. I also added spinach for vegetables and a bit of pickle carrots and daikon. The result was great! If I have time, I will post the picture up! In a mean time, I will continue to modify the recipe to make it better!
That is it for now but I think my next post will be about keratosis pilaris :)
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
a look to the already-done
The past few days have been Yiruma and the magical music.
I've always liked Kitaro's composition. It is magnificent and yet touches your heart deeply.
Introducing "Thinking of You" by Kitaro
It's been a busy day from morning until late night. Although long, I found some interesting and useful information that can be used for my new projects.
They said if you walk so slowly but as long as you continue to walk, you will eventually get where you want to be.
It's very optimistic of course. Imagine you are where you are at this point in life. How much struggles have you gone through to reach to this stage? Have you looked back at the road you've taken recently? Have you had any regrets? Should you have any regrets?
Some people have their paths lining up just right. Some people have to go through different stages in life in order to get to the garden of fruits.
As I look back at the last few years, things have gone from normal to crazy and back to normal and back to crazy. At times, I question why the decision was made and why I chose to follow a certain route. Then I realize it was just an exploration. When you are unsure of what you want to do, what else is better than an exploration? But it wasn't a mindless exploration. Just like you go on a hike, you have to prepare to deal with the worse situation. But at the same time, you should also try to prevent the worse situation. most of you wouldn't probably choose to go on the longest route when you are new to the hiking path or just start to hike. Why so? because it's a recipe for disaster. So what you do? You do it at small increment. Just like that with life, at time, you haven't been able to accomplish what you want, you should be happy actually. Why? because this means you can continue to grow and go further and go deeper. Who knows, you might even be able to do more than accomplish what you have set to accomplish.
I guess I'm writing for myself because I think this is what I need at the moment in order to continue.
:)
I've always liked Kitaro's composition. It is magnificent and yet touches your heart deeply.
Introducing "Thinking of You" by Kitaro
It's been a busy day from morning until late night. Although long, I found some interesting and useful information that can be used for my new projects.
They said if you walk so slowly but as long as you continue to walk, you will eventually get where you want to be.
It's very optimistic of course. Imagine you are where you are at this point in life. How much struggles have you gone through to reach to this stage? Have you looked back at the road you've taken recently? Have you had any regrets? Should you have any regrets?
Some people have their paths lining up just right. Some people have to go through different stages in life in order to get to the garden of fruits.
As I look back at the last few years, things have gone from normal to crazy and back to normal and back to crazy. At times, I question why the decision was made and why I chose to follow a certain route. Then I realize it was just an exploration. When you are unsure of what you want to do, what else is better than an exploration? But it wasn't a mindless exploration. Just like you go on a hike, you have to prepare to deal with the worse situation. But at the same time, you should also try to prevent the worse situation. most of you wouldn't probably choose to go on the longest route when you are new to the hiking path or just start to hike. Why so? because it's a recipe for disaster. So what you do? You do it at small increment. Just like that with life, at time, you haven't been able to accomplish what you want, you should be happy actually. Why? because this means you can continue to grow and go further and go deeper. Who knows, you might even be able to do more than accomplish what you have set to accomplish.
I guess I'm writing for myself because I think this is what I need at the moment in order to continue.
:)
Monday, August 15, 2011
Winter Waltz in the summer air
I couldn't believe that I couldn't find this song by Jim Brickman on youtube!
So this is a cover of Winter Waltz!
Interestingly enough, I wrote about career decision yesterday and today an article about people who left their primary career to go to what were considered as secondary career. A sign for me maybe? I don't think so but it's good to reflect on though.
The article did mention that they followed what they had dreamed of and had always wanted to do. It is a bittersweet moment I guess. Leaving a very good job to open one's own business. Doing what you think you love everyday but the work hour can be extremely exhausting. Sometimes I do wonder, I can quit many things and just do one thing. But then I realize, my entire time will be focusing on that one thing and will there still be fun moment?
Currently, I always work to find time for different projects. Just today, I got an email saying that I need to complete this and that. This is on top of what could be a very well 10-12 hours a day. This is just for one project while I have many others lining up behind. Sometimes I do feel, one should distinguish what is a hobby and what is a passion.
One can have many hobbies and they can change from months to years. One day, you are probably very into working various drawings. The next month, you might want to try your hand on a motorbike instead. I do feel that when I have time to work on sometimes on the side, I feel very happy but if I were to spend my entire day doing just that, I wouldn't be too happy. Because it was just a hobby and it was not what I am passionate about.
But I think what you feel passionate about will be able to manifest itself in various forms and shapes. As a result, you have somehow incorporated it into your life without knowing it specifically. Or once you have become conscious of what you are passionate about, you start to be more proactive in decision making. Maybe this is what I am doing. Step by step, I'm working on something that I am happy about but the distance between me and what I want to accomplish seems to be very far and there are many obstacles. Is there a way around it? I don't know. Using what I have to foster what I want ^_^ (sound like s shopping slogan!)
Good night for now...much to think about... much to write ^_^
"like a like" (C)
like a snowflake
pointed
shining
transient
like a raindrop
lingering
on the leaf
after the rain
like a blue sky
shifting
through the wind
in the sun
life shall I call
multifaceted
lingering
and shifting
So this is a cover of Winter Waltz!
Interestingly enough, I wrote about career decision yesterday and today an article about people who left their primary career to go to what were considered as secondary career. A sign for me maybe? I don't think so but it's good to reflect on though.
The article did mention that they followed what they had dreamed of and had always wanted to do. It is a bittersweet moment I guess. Leaving a very good job to open one's own business. Doing what you think you love everyday but the work hour can be extremely exhausting. Sometimes I do wonder, I can quit many things and just do one thing. But then I realize, my entire time will be focusing on that one thing and will there still be fun moment?
Currently, I always work to find time for different projects. Just today, I got an email saying that I need to complete this and that. This is on top of what could be a very well 10-12 hours a day. This is just for one project while I have many others lining up behind. Sometimes I do feel, one should distinguish what is a hobby and what is a passion.
One can have many hobbies and they can change from months to years. One day, you are probably very into working various drawings. The next month, you might want to try your hand on a motorbike instead. I do feel that when I have time to work on sometimes on the side, I feel very happy but if I were to spend my entire day doing just that, I wouldn't be too happy. Because it was just a hobby and it was not what I am passionate about.
But I think what you feel passionate about will be able to manifest itself in various forms and shapes. As a result, you have somehow incorporated it into your life without knowing it specifically. Or once you have become conscious of what you are passionate about, you start to be more proactive in decision making. Maybe this is what I am doing. Step by step, I'm working on something that I am happy about but the distance between me and what I want to accomplish seems to be very far and there are many obstacles. Is there a way around it? I don't know. Using what I have to foster what I want ^_^ (sound like s shopping slogan!)
Good night for now...much to think about... much to write ^_^
"like a like" (C)
like a snowflake
pointed
shining
transient
like a raindrop
lingering
on the leaf
after the rain
like a blue sky
shifting
through the wind
in the sun
life shall I call
multifaceted
lingering
and shifting
Sunday, August 14, 2011
the rain keeps on pounding
Our Same Word by Yiruma (maybe I will one day get to see him in a concert?) :)
And the rain keeps on coming... it's raining hard outside...it might be the last rain season that I will witness here. The roof might be temporarily leaking again. Last time it did quite a bit of damage to my kitchen utensils!
It's been a quite few years. I have come to love and come to be familiar with this place. At the same time, I am also ready to move on to a different place. I went grocery shopping today and realized that very soon, I will probably have to learn everything from scratch all over again. But it is okie. If I start counting the weeks, I wonder how many it would be. It's already mid-august.
From time to time, I ask myself what it is that I want to do. I wonder whether you do the same. While I juggle between projects (professional and personal), I wonder why I have to try so many things. What is it that I really like and would not be tired of doing it every day?
I realize I do miss writing. I do miss working creatively. I used to write more often (not technical writing but more of creative writing). I wrote a small book that needs to be edited. I wonder when was the last time I had it read. Maybe I should take it out and start reading it again to make modifications.
If the trend that I have been observed is correct, I will probably rewrite the whole thing. It has come to no surprise to me that in the past few letters that I've sent (professionally) as well as essays that I wrote, I pretty much rewrote the entire document the second time around. Not that it was not good in the first place, it was a rough draft which needed to be polished. And I did after the second, the third, and the fourth etc.
Very soon, I will have to start the whole writing process all over again in anticipation of a new application cycle. May I head to the right direction... if not, I hope something would come and stop me :)
night night..
pounding rain
the rain keeps on
pounding
on the rooftop
into the windowsill
the raindrops tiptoe
while thunder and lightning
shine
through the night
was it the rain
or was it the sound
wiggling
to my heart
it keeps on pounding
pounding
pounding
and
pounding
(C) please credit if used!
And the rain keeps on coming... it's raining hard outside...it might be the last rain season that I will witness here. The roof might be temporarily leaking again. Last time it did quite a bit of damage to my kitchen utensils!
It's been a quite few years. I have come to love and come to be familiar with this place. At the same time, I am also ready to move on to a different place. I went grocery shopping today and realized that very soon, I will probably have to learn everything from scratch all over again. But it is okie. If I start counting the weeks, I wonder how many it would be. It's already mid-august.
From time to time, I ask myself what it is that I want to do. I wonder whether you do the same. While I juggle between projects (professional and personal), I wonder why I have to try so many things. What is it that I really like and would not be tired of doing it every day?
I realize I do miss writing. I do miss working creatively. I used to write more often (not technical writing but more of creative writing). I wrote a small book that needs to be edited. I wonder when was the last time I had it read. Maybe I should take it out and start reading it again to make modifications.
If the trend that I have been observed is correct, I will probably rewrite the whole thing. It has come to no surprise to me that in the past few letters that I've sent (professionally) as well as essays that I wrote, I pretty much rewrote the entire document the second time around. Not that it was not good in the first place, it was a rough draft which needed to be polished. And I did after the second, the third, and the fourth etc.
Very soon, I will have to start the whole writing process all over again in anticipation of a new application cycle. May I head to the right direction... if not, I hope something would come and stop me :)
night night..
pounding rain
the rain keeps on
pounding
on the rooftop
into the windowsill
the raindrops tiptoe
while thunder and lightning
shine
through the night
was it the rain
or was it the sound
wiggling
to my heart
it keeps on pounding
pounding
pounding
and
pounding
(C) please credit if used!
Saturday, August 13, 2011
The end of summer day
Hope by Yiruma (love his song!)
It was raining on and off outside this morning. The weather was clear in the afternoon and the tiny breeze made things a lot better when I walked outside!
For the past two weeks, I have been looking at the search engine in Pubmed for more than 5-6 hours a day. It is to the point that I don't want to look at it for the rest of the week (but I really doubt this is going to happen).
I will repeatedly tell myself that this too shall pass!
I went to Hallmark today to get some cards and saw that the store currently has a 75% sale (on selected items - mostly out of season items) and if you buy 6 or more you will get 85% off instead. I got 5 items and it took a good 15 minutes to get the next one to get the 85% off. But according to Hallmark, I saved about 47 dollars (what was supposed to be a 50+ purchase became an 9 dollars in total!). Can I be happy? Probably yes because I only bought what I thought I would use and nothing else. That's why it took me forever to decide on the last item!
As I walked the sale isle, I realized oh Father's day has passed. when was it? How come I couldn't remember? I took me a couple of hours to remember that it was in June. It's now August. I wonder whether I have too much in my mind that things start to blend into each other and probably don't make sense as much? I started writing some deadlines down and everything was dated 2010 (we're almost done with 2011!!!).
I wonder...by this time next year and the year following next...how much would I remember...
today, I made another batch of kombucha using a different type of green tea. My other batch is growing very well! ^_^
It was raining on and off outside this morning. The weather was clear in the afternoon and the tiny breeze made things a lot better when I walked outside!
For the past two weeks, I have been looking at the search engine in Pubmed for more than 5-6 hours a day. It is to the point that I don't want to look at it for the rest of the week (but I really doubt this is going to happen).
I will repeatedly tell myself that this too shall pass!
I went to Hallmark today to get some cards and saw that the store currently has a 75% sale (on selected items - mostly out of season items) and if you buy 6 or more you will get 85% off instead. I got 5 items and it took a good 15 minutes to get the next one to get the 85% off. But according to Hallmark, I saved about 47 dollars (what was supposed to be a 50+ purchase became an 9 dollars in total!). Can I be happy? Probably yes because I only bought what I thought I would use and nothing else. That's why it took me forever to decide on the last item!
As I walked the sale isle, I realized oh Father's day has passed. when was it? How come I couldn't remember? I took me a couple of hours to remember that it was in June. It's now August. I wonder whether I have too much in my mind that things start to blend into each other and probably don't make sense as much? I started writing some deadlines down and everything was dated 2010 (we're almost done with 2011!!!).
I wonder...by this time next year and the year following next...how much would I remember...
today, I made another batch of kombucha using a different type of green tea. My other batch is growing very well! ^_^
Friday, August 12, 2011
nostalgia
Can i share this music with you?
It's so touching and moving! A moment of nostalgia...
I was looking for a dictionary earlier in the day and came across a reference book that I bought a couple years ago. Unintentionally, I opened to see the surprise passage. The book landed on the chapter about Karma. I have heard karma from time to time and have tried to explain what I learned about Karma from time to time but to say that I truly understand is a stretch. So I started reading a few pages and the message brought me back to the time I was training in a few years ago at the center. It was hard and it was painful but mixed within the discomfort is the sweet fruit of determination. Little did I know what happened to be a short training session has changed many things about one's self. Time after time, I continue to flash back about what happened then and remind myself to continue to practice. Time is scarce but one needs to make time for what is important.
I started making fermented glutinous rice. I didn't go to the store to buy the fermented yeast (out of laziness). Instead, I used the liquid (supposedly containing fermented yeast) from the store-bought fermented glutinous rice instead. I don't know if this is going to work but we'll see in a week. I'll report back to see whether it's actually edible! :D
My kombucha is growing so fast and so well!!! Seriously, if this keeps up, I will run out of jar and will have kombucha for a very long time! I'm glad though because now I don't have to pay big bucks for a small bottle. Very happy about this.
so what new thing have you tried doing this week? Maybe my goal should be trying to do something new once a week or once a month. So by the end of the year, I will definitely have learned something. :)
good weekend y'all
It's so touching and moving! A moment of nostalgia...
I was looking for a dictionary earlier in the day and came across a reference book that I bought a couple years ago. Unintentionally, I opened to see the surprise passage. The book landed on the chapter about Karma. I have heard karma from time to time and have tried to explain what I learned about Karma from time to time but to say that I truly understand is a stretch. So I started reading a few pages and the message brought me back to the time I was training in a few years ago at the center. It was hard and it was painful but mixed within the discomfort is the sweet fruit of determination. Little did I know what happened to be a short training session has changed many things about one's self. Time after time, I continue to flash back about what happened then and remind myself to continue to practice. Time is scarce but one needs to make time for what is important.
I started making fermented glutinous rice. I didn't go to the store to buy the fermented yeast (out of laziness). Instead, I used the liquid (supposedly containing fermented yeast) from the store-bought fermented glutinous rice instead. I don't know if this is going to work but we'll see in a week. I'll report back to see whether it's actually edible! :D
My kombucha is growing so fast and so well!!! Seriously, if this keeps up, I will run out of jar and will have kombucha for a very long time! I'm glad though because now I don't have to pay big bucks for a small bottle. Very happy about this.
so what new thing have you tried doing this week? Maybe my goal should be trying to do something new once a week or once a month. So by the end of the year, I will definitely have learned something. :)
good weekend y'all
Thursday, August 11, 2011
is it morning?
Sometimes my strangeness can reach a very different level to which I can't even describe.
As I'm working on a project, out of nowhere I feel excited about eating my breakfast the next morning!!!! Not that it's new or crazily good because I practically eat the same breakfast for most days but for some reasons... the expectation to have a good breakfast in the morning just makes me very happy. Could it be because I'm hungry currently? :D
So youtube offers something to think about the morning and..so
Good morning! From Singing in the Rain...
But then I found this!
so enjoy your morning wherever you are :)
As I'm working on a project, out of nowhere I feel excited about eating my breakfast the next morning!!!! Not that it's new or crazily good because I practically eat the same breakfast for most days but for some reasons... the expectation to have a good breakfast in the morning just makes me very happy. Could it be because I'm hungry currently? :D
So youtube offers something to think about the morning and..so
Good morning! From Singing in the Rain...
But then I found this!
so enjoy your morning wherever you are :)
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
what it means?
I want to write so much but time is not with me! But I have to jot down something.
I remembered my bhante used to tell me to try harder and don't give up. All but one bhante (must I say the master of the master) just kind of let me decide what I want to do. It was when I went on a retreat and wanted to go home. My brain had had enough and decided it can't take it anymore. Everything bothered me at that time. I mean everything! So I went home and wondered why he didn't do anything in his power to make me stay. I heard stories that he had made people stay in the past. I wondered and wondered... Maybe he just knew I wasn't completely ready for it? I don't know...
I recently lead some relaxation/meditation practice with a small group friends (by group I mean like 2 other people). while I did think it was helpful for me to think of away to share this practice that I had, I start to understand what it meant to be a teacher. To me, it was pretty hard to explain things without bringing religion into it. What should I say? trying to lead a practice that was based on one's religion philosophy to another person of a different religion without bringing the religion itself into the teaching (if this makes any sense!).
I got an email from one of the friends saying that she can't continue. Rather than upset or disappointed in myself, I just think ...maybe this is not for her. There are many other types of practices out there, she will find one that fits her and when the time is right, she will be able to do it.
To be disciplined is hard but it is not impossible. Maybe now I understand what it means to be teaching someone...to be leading a session.
Just like the practice said... just let it go... :) the moment you let things go, the burden you often carry will be lighter.
:)
I remembered my bhante used to tell me to try harder and don't give up. All but one bhante (must I say the master of the master) just kind of let me decide what I want to do. It was when I went on a retreat and wanted to go home. My brain had had enough and decided it can't take it anymore. Everything bothered me at that time. I mean everything! So I went home and wondered why he didn't do anything in his power to make me stay. I heard stories that he had made people stay in the past. I wondered and wondered... Maybe he just knew I wasn't completely ready for it? I don't know...
I recently lead some relaxation/meditation practice with a small group friends (by group I mean like 2 other people). while I did think it was helpful for me to think of away to share this practice that I had, I start to understand what it meant to be a teacher. To me, it was pretty hard to explain things without bringing religion into it. What should I say? trying to lead a practice that was based on one's religion philosophy to another person of a different religion without bringing the religion itself into the teaching (if this makes any sense!).
I got an email from one of the friends saying that she can't continue. Rather than upset or disappointed in myself, I just think ...maybe this is not for her. There are many other types of practices out there, she will find one that fits her and when the time is right, she will be able to do it.
To be disciplined is hard but it is not impossible. Maybe now I understand what it means to be teaching someone...to be leading a session.
Just like the practice said... just let it go... :) the moment you let things go, the burden you often carry will be lighter.
:)
Friday, August 5, 2011
august storm?
The first week of August has gone by so quickly!!
To me it's like what? half a month has gone by? really?
I've learned a lot this week. I've read a lot this week. Now I realize I need to prepare a lot for next week as well. It really seems that I keep working and moving from one thing to another.
I've started weight lifting recently or to state it correctly working with weight. We will have to wait to see the results. I think I just need to build some muscles because currently I have none and this really limits the amount of food I can eat. They said when you have more muscle, you can eat more. This is exactly what I want!
The research project is still going. It's going better I think because I've worked out the kinks so now it's just the labor. I try to call it the labor of love! (I do love what I do but it's just a lot and a lot of love!)
I've been listening to this song all night! It's interesting how the same song can be sung in many different ways.
The original singer: Charles Aznavour sang with a voice that kept your attention and made you aware.
But when you Roy Charles sang with, his voice was so sad and full of regrets that make me love this version at a whole new level. I think he was able to make the song touch my heart and
And a few decades later, Roy Charles still delivers the song nicely. Although there is a crack in his voice and no longer was there a smooth transition between notes, his rendition still makes an impact as to how the lyrics directs it.
And when Charles Aznavour delivered it a few decades later...I think we can see very clearly how the two gentlemen interpreted the song with different emotions
For me, I think I like Roy Charles's version a lot more. Maybe because it's down to earth and maybe because I was able to feel his emotion when he sang this song and how much thoughts he put into it.
you can listen and judge for yourself
To me it's like what? half a month has gone by? really?
I've learned a lot this week. I've read a lot this week. Now I realize I need to prepare a lot for next week as well. It really seems that I keep working and moving from one thing to another.
I've started weight lifting recently or to state it correctly working with weight. We will have to wait to see the results. I think I just need to build some muscles because currently I have none and this really limits the amount of food I can eat. They said when you have more muscle, you can eat more. This is exactly what I want!
The research project is still going. It's going better I think because I've worked out the kinks so now it's just the labor. I try to call it the labor of love! (I do love what I do but it's just a lot and a lot of love!)
I've been listening to this song all night! It's interesting how the same song can be sung in many different ways.
The original singer: Charles Aznavour sang with a voice that kept your attention and made you aware.
But when you Roy Charles sang with, his voice was so sad and full of regrets that make me love this version at a whole new level. I think he was able to make the song touch my heart and
And a few decades later, Roy Charles still delivers the song nicely. Although there is a crack in his voice and no longer was there a smooth transition between notes, his rendition still makes an impact as to how the lyrics directs it.
And when Charles Aznavour delivered it a few decades later...I think we can see very clearly how the two gentlemen interpreted the song with different emotions
For me, I think I like Roy Charles's version a lot more. Maybe because it's down to earth and maybe because I was able to feel his emotion when he sang this song and how much thoughts he put into it.
you can listen and judge for yourself
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