like the river i flow
like the wind I whistle
like the forest i stand
quite quietly through time...
i haven't written a poem in ages....but..all of a sudden they just come and come...
Monday, August 30, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
temporary thing
....
they said...depression and sadness are states of mind....
just like other states of mind, they are subject to change....
just meditate on it... it will go away... one by one...bit by bit
when it hits you hard, just realize it's only temporary. just like with everything in life, it is only a temporary thing.
they said...depression and sadness are states of mind....
just like other states of mind, they are subject to change....
just meditate on it... it will go away... one by one...bit by bit
when it hits you hard, just realize it's only temporary. just like with everything in life, it is only a temporary thing.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
happiness
of the places that i've been to.. of the things that i've learned...
the most important thing is...happiness is coming from within .. ^_^
the most important thing is...happiness is coming from within .. ^_^
first week of school
I was listening to the following song recently...
Little did I know the lyric is right there...I love the music..the beat...
somehow it makes me think..is it time to grow up yet? it's been almost 2 years now...things have changed...I have changed...busier, messier, crazier...but I've learned so so so much....
I truly can't be any happier to all the things that have been happening to me. Of course, the down side of life is always there. The parting is always hard. The meeting is always nice. Life moves on. We move on from one thing to another thing. Once in a while, we look back and think about how far we have come... once in a while, we stop and realize life has so much to offer.
not a social butterfly myself, sometimes I wonder what I've missed out. We tend to think about what we might have missed and forget about what we might have gained.
I miss the sales at the stores, but I ended up finishing the project at work. I might miss attending the party but I ended up receiving many life lessons...
"whatever you decide to do, just make sure you're comfortable with it."
Many times I do things compulsively...only to realize what I did that. Learn from my mistakes, I try again.
This time, I've been doing the other blog for more than 2 months now and each day I've learned so much and at the same time..giving me satisfaction.
I'm currently working on a project in which I have to learn about different statistical test. I wish I could take a class to just focus on it... they offer it but it's extremely cost prohibiting..not only that I have to fly there 5 times a semester...who would have the money to do that? not me...but it's on my plan to be able to do that one day because I think I start to realize my dream....I think I'm getting closer to define what I want to do... of course, it will be subject to change but hey it's ok.
A friend comments on my career prospect: you know you like different things, you do different things, but there is a core in each and everything you do...they point to the same direction: what to do with the data at hand.
yeah that's what I want to do. Now I only need to learn how to get to the level that I want to get...oh and which path I need to go.
best of luck....
Little did I know the lyric is right there...I love the music..the beat...
somehow it makes me think..is it time to grow up yet? it's been almost 2 years now...things have changed...I have changed...busier, messier, crazier...but I've learned so so so much....
I truly can't be any happier to all the things that have been happening to me. Of course, the down side of life is always there. The parting is always hard. The meeting is always nice. Life moves on. We move on from one thing to another thing. Once in a while, we look back and think about how far we have come... once in a while, we stop and realize life has so much to offer.
not a social butterfly myself, sometimes I wonder what I've missed out. We tend to think about what we might have missed and forget about what we might have gained.
I miss the sales at the stores, but I ended up finishing the project at work. I might miss attending the party but I ended up receiving many life lessons...
"whatever you decide to do, just make sure you're comfortable with it."
Many times I do things compulsively...only to realize what I did that. Learn from my mistakes, I try again.
This time, I've been doing the other blog for more than 2 months now and each day I've learned so much and at the same time..giving me satisfaction.
I'm currently working on a project in which I have to learn about different statistical test. I wish I could take a class to just focus on it... they offer it but it's extremely cost prohibiting..not only that I have to fly there 5 times a semester...who would have the money to do that? not me...but it's on my plan to be able to do that one day because I think I start to realize my dream....I think I'm getting closer to define what I want to do... of course, it will be subject to change but hey it's ok.
A friend comments on my career prospect: you know you like different things, you do different things, but there is a core in each and everything you do...they point to the same direction: what to do with the data at hand.
yeah that's what I want to do. Now I only need to learn how to get to the level that I want to get...oh and which path I need to go.
best of luck....
first week of school
I was listening to the following song recently...
Little did I know the lyric is right there...I love the music..the beat...
somehow it makes me think..is it time to grow up yet? it's been almost 2 years now...things have changed...I have changed...busier, messier, crazier...but I've learned so so so much....
I truly can't be any happier to all the things that have been happening to me. Of course, the down side of life is always there. The parting is always hard. The meeting is always nice. Life moves on. We move on from one thing to another thing. Once in a while, we look back and think about how far we have come... once in a while, we stop and realize life has so much to offer.
not a social butterfly myself, sometimes I wonder what I've missed out. We tend to think about what we might have missed and forget about what we might have gained.
I miss the sales at the stores, but I ended up finishing the project at work. I might miss attending the party but I ended up receiving many life lessons...
"whatever you decide to do, just make sure you're comfortable with it."
Many times I do things compulsively...only to realize what I did that. Learn from my mistakes, I try again.
This time, I've been doing the other blog for more than 2 months now and each day I've learned so much and at the same time..giving me satisfaction.
I'm currently working on a project in which I have to learn about different statistical test. I wish I could take a class to just focus on it... they offer it but it's extremely cost prohibiting..not only that I have to fly there 5 times a semester...who would have the money to do that? not me...but it's on my plan to be able to do that one day because I think I start to realize my dream....I think I'm getting closer to define what I want to do... of course, it will be subject to change but hey it's ok.
A friend comments on my career prospect: you know you like different things, you do different things, but there is a core in each and everything you do...they point to the same direction: what to do with the data at hand.
yeah that's what I want to do. Now I only need to learn how to get to the level that I want to get...oh and which path I need to go.
best of luck....
Little did I know the lyric is right there...I love the music..the beat...
somehow it makes me think..is it time to grow up yet? it's been almost 2 years now...things have changed...I have changed...busier, messier, crazier...but I've learned so so so much....
I truly can't be any happier to all the things that have been happening to me. Of course, the down side of life is always there. The parting is always hard. The meeting is always nice. Life moves on. We move on from one thing to another thing. Once in a while, we look back and think about how far we have come... once in a while, we stop and realize life has so much to offer.
not a social butterfly myself, sometimes I wonder what I've missed out. We tend to think about what we might have missed and forget about what we might have gained.
I miss the sales at the stores, but I ended up finishing the project at work. I might miss attending the party but I ended up receiving many life lessons...
"whatever you decide to do, just make sure you're comfortable with it."
Many times I do things compulsively...only to realize what I did that. Learn from my mistakes, I try again.
This time, I've been doing the other blog for more than 2 months now and each day I've learned so much and at the same time..giving me satisfaction.
I'm currently working on a project in which I have to learn about different statistical test. I wish I could take a class to just focus on it... they offer it but it's extremely cost prohibiting..not only that I have to fly there 5 times a semester...who would have the money to do that? not me...but it's on my plan to be able to do that one day because I think I start to realize my dream....I think I'm getting closer to define what I want to do... of course, it will be subject to change but hey it's ok.
A friend comments on my career prospect: you know you like different things, you do different things, but there is a core in each and everything you do...they point to the same direction: what to do with the data at hand.
yeah that's what I want to do. Now I only need to learn how to get to the level that I want to get...oh and which path I need to go.
best of luck....
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
unexpected resolution!
realizing...
my brain is working non-stop because...unexpectedly I come up w/ a solution for my recording. ^_^ wonderful...now I can actually continue doing it w/o hiccup ^_^
my brain is working non-stop because...unexpectedly I come up w/ a solution for my recording. ^_^ wonderful...now I can actually continue doing it w/o hiccup ^_^
Monday, August 23, 2010
the end of summer is really here...
so school starts tomorrow for some of us. For me, it doesn't start until Wednesday. I wonder by taking a different route (quite different from other), I made the right decision. It's not easy knowing all your friends are taking therapy classes and you are here taking what you think are interesting.
I guess I just need to walk straight to the next destination. who knows what will happen.
let's just pray for the good thing to come ^_^
I guess I just need to walk straight to the next destination. who knows what will happen.
let's just pray for the good thing to come ^_^
Sunday, August 22, 2010
summer ending
I think I know what I want in life... I think I know I have to work hard to get to where I want...sometimes the doubts just creep in...let's just be brave and move forward ^_^
Monday, August 16, 2010
the ending summer part 2
Im sitting thinking...wow my intuition is pretty good...
i have to trust it more and more from now one obvious w/ good conscience.
Sometimes, the energy that you project really tells what kind of person you are whether you know it or not. It's a wonderful and interesting feeling to notice time and time again how correct these things are. (okie not 100% but at least 90%).
Proceed w/ caution...at least I know for now...trust my intuition because it has failed me much...
bracing for the worse but at the same ...joining the venture challenge is just as an amazing feeling. I've never felt so much energy and belief in doing such things. I hope it will give me good perspective on how things are going. After all, I'm not moving across the country and spending the past years I mean years studying and working for nothing (obviously for many years, working hard for no obvious reasons), but now maybe it's a hope? ^_^
We'll see what happen ...summer is almost over now... time to get ready to charge into the next term
i have to trust it more and more from now one obvious w/ good conscience.
Sometimes, the energy that you project really tells what kind of person you are whether you know it or not. It's a wonderful and interesting feeling to notice time and time again how correct these things are. (okie not 100% but at least 90%).
Proceed w/ caution...at least I know for now...trust my intuition because it has failed me much...
bracing for the worse but at the same ...joining the venture challenge is just as an amazing feeling. I've never felt so much energy and belief in doing such things. I hope it will give me good perspective on how things are going. After all, I'm not moving across the country and spending the past years I mean years studying and working for nothing (obviously for many years, working hard for no obvious reasons), but now maybe it's a hope? ^_^
We'll see what happen ...summer is almost over now... time to get ready to charge into the next term
Sunday, August 8, 2010
random #?
It's a cloudy day...oh and school is almost about to begin...
What a summer it has been. So busy but so much fun. I've enjoyed every bit of it. Not a single moment, not a single project goes by uninterested. On top, I am truly able to do something that I truly enjoy. Learning about it along the way has been a great experience.
oh and it's raining now...what a strange day...listening to the music about the falling raining just couldn't make it a better suitable topic.
My vacation will start next weekend... I can't wait to see my little nephew. he must be bigger now. Hearing his voice and his parents' joy over the phone, I can't be happier. I know I need to open my heart more...to love all beings...sometimes it takes a rational decision to do so and slowly, bits by bits, I will be able to do so.
if you don't love something or if you hate something, it might be better just to look at it, I don't hate this...the feeling will go away, and next time when you see it again, it's just an object that you encounter.
this post is so random without any topics/details etc.
What a summer it has been. So busy but so much fun. I've enjoyed every bit of it. Not a single moment, not a single project goes by uninterested. On top, I am truly able to do something that I truly enjoy. Learning about it along the way has been a great experience.
oh and it's raining now...what a strange day...listening to the music about the falling raining just couldn't make it a better suitable topic.
My vacation will start next weekend... I can't wait to see my little nephew. he must be bigger now. Hearing his voice and his parents' joy over the phone, I can't be happier. I know I need to open my heart more...to love all beings...sometimes it takes a rational decision to do so and slowly, bits by bits, I will be able to do so.
if you don't love something or if you hate something, it might be better just to look at it, I don't hate this...the feeling will go away, and next time when you see it again, it's just an object that you encounter.
this post is so random without any topics/details etc.
Monday, August 2, 2010
When the conversation took place...
Today...I take a break to breathe, to learn, and just to be..
Our car broke down and needed to have it fixed in order to get back home. As we waited for it in the garage, we asked to be shuttled to the nearby mall for some food. On our way back, the conversation was more than I asked for. I always learn to appreciate new things or old things no matter what it is.
Our driver is probably in his late fifty if not early sixty. I asked him whether he had lunch. He said yes. He ate a bit and he had lost a few pounds in the past few months. I asked him whether it's for health reasons. He told us about his medical condition. It turned out he had myeloid leukemia, a blood cancer disorder. Diagnosed more than 10 years ago, a bone marrow transplant lasted him for 3 years. Remission and then rounds of chemotherapy. He has survived for 10 years...until this year when the disease starts to crop up once again threatening to take his life away. As I sat listening to his story, I asked about his family. He said he had 4 children. It reminded me of you Daddy only that you have less than 4 months from the time of diagnosis to the time you passed away. His cracking voice touched my heart and I almost let down the tears thinking his family must be praying for his survival right now. As we approached our destination, he told us to stay safe and have a good trip. I wish him to have another 10 years. I wonder what will happen to him. He said he has survived for 10 years and he really wishes to have another 10. I do hope so.
Live healthily, live happily...I do wish you have another 10 years....I do wish by then you don't have to worry about your remission and if you really have to go, I wish it will be as pain free as it could possibly be.
Best
Our car broke down and needed to have it fixed in order to get back home. As we waited for it in the garage, we asked to be shuttled to the nearby mall for some food. On our way back, the conversation was more than I asked for. I always learn to appreciate new things or old things no matter what it is.
Our driver is probably in his late fifty if not early sixty. I asked him whether he had lunch. He said yes. He ate a bit and he had lost a few pounds in the past few months. I asked him whether it's for health reasons. He told us about his medical condition. It turned out he had myeloid leukemia, a blood cancer disorder. Diagnosed more than 10 years ago, a bone marrow transplant lasted him for 3 years. Remission and then rounds of chemotherapy. He has survived for 10 years...until this year when the disease starts to crop up once again threatening to take his life away. As I sat listening to his story, I asked about his family. He said he had 4 children. It reminded me of you Daddy only that you have less than 4 months from the time of diagnosis to the time you passed away. His cracking voice touched my heart and I almost let down the tears thinking his family must be praying for his survival right now. As we approached our destination, he told us to stay safe and have a good trip. I wish him to have another 10 years. I wonder what will happen to him. He said he has survived for 10 years and he really wishes to have another 10. I do hope so.
Live healthily, live happily...I do wish you have another 10 years....I do wish by then you don't have to worry about your remission and if you really have to go, I wish it will be as pain free as it could possibly be.
Best
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
Posts
