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been slacking off... I need to get my act together soon....

this week can't come and go any faster...

swimming has been great...love the therapeutic swimming session in the past few days ^_^ 

only if my mood has been better..

all shall pass...like a saying...nothing stays forever, even happiness, even sadness..all shall pass...

writing...

after many years, we've arrived at the same crossroads.
In the past or so I've been following this Korean Drama called "Cinderella's Sister."
The series contain all the emotions that most of us going through at least once in a while.  While watching it, I can't help but thinking to myself... yeah I can relate to that.
Is there a prince charming? Is there a god mother?  Is there a chance to change everything to make things better? 
I would say there are many unexpected twisted and turns and that make the story so much better than the predictable normal romantic comedy that have been becoming more mainstream.  Add a little bit laughter, a bit of romantic, a bit of misery, and a bit of good attracting actors and actresses then come a drama.
But this one is so different.  All the actors and actresses possess their roles as though they are their own life.
Each and every scene has significant story to tell. 
Their are several main characters in the story
Eun-jo: a little girl who followed her Mom wherever she went because she was the only one family member that she got to know. 
Ki-hoon:  a neglected ill. child from a rich family whose family often wanted him dead than alive.
The two lost found each other but never confessed that they loved each other until one day one went missing... until one day.. all the secrets were revealed...
the tear drops from each of them spoke more than words.
Many times we look back and see ourselves standing at the same crossroads. 
The directors purposely reenacted many scenes from the past with the current conditions... seeing how each characters growed from their pain, their love, trying to reach for their happiness I wonder about it myself.
How many times I'm going through the same emotions and yes each time it's so different because I'm a different person at each time.  Compared to 10 years ago, 8 years ago, 6 years ago, 4 years, or 2 years ago, the decisions are made differently each time because you are no longer the same person why would you be the same when you are growing each day from learning, from experience, from others.
It's almost 2 years... and yesterday I bought a father day card...

sick sick

So I'm staying at home today after reporting to work.  Was orderd to go home and rest.
Stomach doesn't feel good.  Everything doesn't feel good.  can't eat anything to make me feel good.  This is a horrible feeling when your tummy keeps on making uneasy noises.
They said there is a stomach flu going around.  I guess I just happen to catch it somehow.  They said the eggs I ate yesterday were not good.
and yeah i always eat the wrong thing when i'm sick!

it's midnight, isn't it?

...should I just ask to go home early?


As you know I'm sitting here writing in thee middle of the night because I .. inadvertently could not sleep the entire night.  Wonder why?  I have digestion problems so all the foods I ate left undigested for the entire evening.  Wonder what happens?  oh throw up episode of course.
I don't think I've thrown up this hard in my life as far as I could remember (if these words make any senses)...
It's crazy and it hurts.  My throat hurts.  The acid taste is too strong for me to go back to sleep so I sit here sleepless and writing.
Without knowing what to write....
Note to self: today only fluid diets, no gym today... that means I might not go for dinner w/ housemates since this will be their last nights here.
Note to self: throwing up is not fun. 
Note to self: needs to eat less (as though I eat a lot).  I blame it on my weak digestive system. I guess now I have an excuse to not eat a whole lot because... the next thing I know I will head to the toilet bowl in no time!

third week update

so this is my third week into rotation.  I have to say I wouldn't have asked for a better rotation site, preceptor.  this place is totally perfect for me.  The preceptor is understanding and nice.  All the people here are just as wonderful.
My MTM session is tomorrow.  Meaning: I will prepare the material about what to tell the patient and what not to tell the patient.
My patient has some compliance issues but I will try my best to see if I can help with anything.  It's exciting but at the same time I feel as though my passion is not here.  I am glad that I am able to do it though.  There is something else that is capturing my mind more than medication therapy management and I think I am leaning toward it more now.  It's still a long shot but we will see what will happen in the future.
I've recently contacted the director at the wellness center near home... yes that is how things get done sometimes unfortunately. well, the employees who work there don't know what kind of pool they have and give me the wrong answer which led to the email that I sent to the director about changing their current pool condition.  In any case, he replied and said they no longer use chlorine! YES!!! So I think I will probably join the gym for sure! I love swimming and nothing gives me better workout beside yoga and stretching.
They have classes that I can attend as well so it's pretty neat.  We will see!
Work is going just fine.  I've been working while on rotation.  Wish the internet was better because I will have gotten more things done but it's okie.  Everything is caught up now.  It's not too bad! 
I admit that I'm quite a workaholic nowadays but it makes me happy.  ^_^


The prospect of finishing up this rotation makes me happy.  I was worried but I didn't have to.  My preceptor made it better.  The site is awesome.  Free food throughout the day.  Free gym for the entire stay.  I couldn't have asked for a better rotation site! ^_^

Need to go to sleep now.  It's been a tiring 2 weeks. 

another week

It still hurts sometimes when I think about it...
The pharmacy is fine today.  It's not busy but steady.  I finished printing out the flyers for the MTM section.  I'm a little bit excited and yeah there are a lot of things to do as well. 
Supposed to have dinner with M. tomorrow but she hasn't called yet . Wonder whether it's still on.  Maybe I should write her an email or something.
I still need to do the poster...
I'm half way done with my rotation already... amazing how time flies.
oh I get to eat a lot of strawberries these days for free.
anticipating another batch tomorrow ^_^
loving it.. loving it..
the CE today was kind of interesting.  A lot of the things I've known... it's good review.  The food was good.  People must have thought I totally waste my food but really it's a bit heavy for me and I knew if I ate it, I would be sick again.. so sorry.. I know it's wasteful but... shouldn't we be cutting back our portion anyway?

night now

..so i end up posting this a day later... yeah my life w/o the flickering internet access.

Ok I will try to ignore the fact that I'm typing this in word... because the internet is not working.. yes it is not working once again. This is getting to the point that I will not be able to get work done. Ah ah...


so second day of second week was not bad but I've learned a lot. Most important of all, I need to learn to think before I said.

Recently, my brain has developed weird habits. I don't even know what it is anymore. The customers were spelling out his name to me. Example: from Kynlon → mcyoungster. I don't know how I come with the name like that but he basically said you told me to spell my name and you wrote this? What even more surprising or what I should have said scarier thing is : I didn't flush at his comment. I apologized and asked him to write down. I think my brain is separating... into two different hemisphere instead of one connecting single entity. I hope nothing wrong is going on in there!

Work is fine today. I know I work hard for what I want. I don't take things for granted. However, some people are not that way. How do you deal with that? Well, very easy... it's better to talk in private than in front of others. That's all I can say about the subject.

Everywhere I go, I always learn something (from my mistakes, and others) ^_^

Went to the gym today. I've been obsessed with my weight again. Crazy crazy I know...but I don't get to exercise much these days. No working to work (it's just not possible). At least the gym is free and offers good quality equipment. I'm thinking about joining a gym near home once I get back. Either that or I should join a class.

About the gym is: I can go any time no need to go on a restricted schedule. About the class is: I can go into a structured environment which I might need.





Overall, things are progressing well. Can't believe that it's the middle of the week again already.

Drug I've learned today? Let's see... I'm not quite sure but I did counsel the patients on aspirin :D To prevent stomach upset, use the enteric coating so that it won't affect your stomach as much as regular formulation.





So.. I've been wanting to write an entry about the K-drama that I'm watching but... time is short so I have to put it aside for another time. Just a note, the world is not black or white. Neither is our character. ^_^





Signing off!

second week of rotation

so... google has decided to delete my post w/o telling me about it... because of the connection issue? huh ? huh??
hello? I can't get to this page w/o logging in.
anyway.. just an update saying I'm into my 2nd week.  Too tired now to write anything longer than this.  Will update after my presentation about vitamin D tomorrow.  Just in case you wonder long how, it's going to be a 40 minutes+ presentation about vitamin D!
pray for me! :)

first day of rotation

the first day of rotation was fine.
I think I will learn a lot from this rotation.
My preceptor is extremely great.  He's so knowledgeable and ... witty as well as funny.  I think I'm extremely lucky...

trick of the day: if you have earwax plugging ear, try stool softener capsule instead of carbamide peroxide.
here is how you would do it.
use the over the counter stool softener capsule
for adult 2 capsules, for children, 1 capsule
puncture the capsule and squeeze out the liquid in there into the plugged ear with your head on the side.
let it stay there for a couple of minutes.  then use the cotton ball to cover it.  in the morning, you will see the result...
I have never tried this but I've heard it works.  If you've tried it, let me know if it works. :D
this statement has not been evaluated by the FDA for safety and efficacy : ) (legality purpose)
Enjoy... I'm back on reviewing the.. review paper...

So I finally arrived at the new place.
The rotation starts tomorrow... interestingly, I'm not as nervous as I was last year.
this year, I have a few housemate as well.  It's kind of nice but let's see ..hopefully I still have time to do some of the stuffs that I need to do.  ^_^.
The drive wasn't so bad.  I think last year it was 2.5 hrs.  this year is about 2 hrs. 
However, 2 hrs is when I'm driving aggressively.  I don't know how Google Map calculate that it's going to be 2 hrs w/in the normal limit.  It's impossible.  I think people must have measured the road incorrectly or something.

anyway... life is good.
if there is a concern... it's only the internet here is so slow... at least we have internet. .
at this point, I have a room all by myself and I don't know whether I will have a roommate.  I don't mind...as long as she comes when I leave :P

^_^

oh I get free food for the entire as well.  Had I known.... I wouldn't have gone grocery shopping...hehe

it's..over..second year it is...

.. wow...wow...I walked out of the room thinking...really? I finished the last test for second year?  Is it really the end?

I guess it is!! I'm glad it is!!

It's been a strange semester.....but I can't say enough...because I have things to do..
rotation is next week....
so I'll be on rotation 40 hrs a week + working 15-20 hrs a week...plus..doing other things that I would love to do when I have "free" time.  Things should be good....
I'm excited to exit PY2 status...on becoming PY3...
bliss...bliss..